1 john 4:4

4You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.

I like to start this off by saying I haven't wrote one of these in a very long time. Not that I forgot about jesus but I just stopped walking in his path and started following my own. When you step off of God's path thing start getting a lil hairy I guess you could say. I've been to jail several times been to rehab. O'ded with my kids in the house. Had my kids taken from me. And it just go on and on. But tonight I called out to god and he of course answered right away. Like he was standing right next to me this whole time arms extended wanting me to come back. 

So I guess it's not a secert anyone that knows me, knows that I've struggled with addiction for all of my adult life. I'll do good for awhile and when I have abiousultly no reason to go back I go back. Anyways after calling out to God tonight I started reading my Bible. I don't know why I was in 1 John but I was and I read this passage. At the time I didn't even think anything. I paused for a second and thought I thought that was in peter or James I didn't know it was first john. But after reading my Bible for several hours and retaining nothing I put it down. I held up my hands and I started praying. I told God how sorry I  was that I went back to drug then went on to tell him that I didn't know what was wrong with me why I couldn't stay away from them. Now I know that the Bible says that at the name of Jesus every knee shall bow! Every knee and I believe that to be every sickness every decease, every knee including depression every knee including anxiety, every knee watch this Unforgivness has to bow to that name. Well how come was my addiction not bowing. I know God is bigger than anything but it wasn't bowing be cause I was in the way. or so I thought. See God knows that I've battled this for this long I've asked him time and time again to take it from me. to no prevail. So why isnt this addiction bowing> I told him how i just read in 1 john that greater is he that is in me than he thats in the world. Then i said did you hear that God? Greater is he that is in ME! than he that is in the world....; I said GOd thats you! Youre spirit is In me and I know that your bigger thn any addiction. Why hasn't it bowed ANd then like a bucket of crap it hit me all at once. and I heard in my spirit Well tell it too!!! OMG!! maybe all this time I've been talking to God about my problems and I should of been telling my problems who my God is!!!! 

So I did I broke down and told my addiction tht it had to go, to get away from me and not to return...Dear heavenly father thank you God I'm so grateful that through your sons death on the cross that I've been adopted in to a new home. I am now and for ever more a child of The only GOd and threw his blood I gain something of the greatest value. something money cant buy. I gain the authority over sin. That means that now instead of me listening to the sin that controls me it now has to listen to me. Cause through his death and rsurection I gain the spirit of God dwelling win me. and at that name every knee shall bow.! Lord I just want you to be here right now I got a lot going on nd I'm gonna need you. Keep me close to you oh God so that I will never waver. Greater Is He that is in meew than hee that is in the world......Amen